Have you ever thought several times in spending your money?
Have you ever thought not to spend your money because you concern about your needs in the future?
Have your ever wondered how long does it take to earn money which you have spent?
I think that these questions may not be considered important for all people especially the affluent. However, these questions have been in my mind since I was child. Can you imagine how does it feel when you are not able to afford something that you desire? Can you imagine that the only way that you are able to have it is by visualizing the affluent buy and enjoy it? I believe the image is really an excruciating pain. Sometimes, you will blame God on the suffering. Another thing is you feel desperate and simply accept it as your fate. The feeling is going to be mixed up with anger, afraid, and powerless. If you have tried to consult to another person, the positive advice which will come from his mouth is NEVER GIVE UP!! Unfortunately, when your feeling is in gloom and doom, it is impossible to agree and accept it. You will think that all things that you do is in vain.
If you meet the case, all you need to do is to GIVE UP!! Nevertheless, you should not keep all your gloom feeling. Instead, you have to keep on searching and exploring the truth of "NEVER GIVE UP" in it. Sure you will feel "deadlock" in the first time, second times, third times, more and more. But, I believe, as long as you still believe the magic word- NEVER GIVE UP- albeit in a minuscule intensity, I am sure one day you will feel that the word, indeed, has its magic in it. Recently, I am now in this state although my feeling is still imbalance. But, sooner or later I believe that I am going to make clear my decision. I believe that I will be able to spend my money without any feeling of hesitation. I also believe that I am able to achieve anything that I desire. It should be stressed that it does not need to be necessarily rich to be able to achieve it - although it is still in a 'rich' category. There is a slight difference being rich and being able to achieve things that you desire. When you are able to achieve the things you like, there is a happiness in your life; taken from Chris Gardner's inspiring movie, it is PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS. Conversely, to be rich may be having a lot of money but being not able to spend or even to enjoy it. It is like you miss something important though you have achieved your ambition.
Well, just like other people, I have a lot of dreams which have not been realized. One of them is I wish that I would be rich and happy. One way which I think the dream will come true is by setting up companies. Perhaps, one of them is a company which produce metal or financing company, just like Warren Buffett has. My another dream is I wish that I was able to let my parents lessen their burden not to keep worrying about my sister's future and mine. Moreover, I wish that I would take my parents travelling around the world; I think this is one of my childhood's dream- travelling around the world. I also wish that there was nothing to worry about things in the future. There would be no worry in everything that I do whether in time, money, and care. There is one dream which i think it is quite important. I wished that I was able to share this happiness with the others who are unfortunate. I would like to give them motivation that they will change themselves in a better life.
It is good to have many dreams. However, simply dreaming on it is not enough to realize it. It is like you make wonderful sand castles and you wait for the waves to sweep the castles. I have to take an action, however small it is, soon. Due to my still imbalance feeling, I still am not able to move it in a significant way. However, I believe that I am able to make a firm decision in it. People may think that my dreams are just dreams. But, in the future I will show to them that I am able to grasp my dreams. I will show them that 'All of your dreams are impossible, however, you have to DREAM the IMPOSSIBILITY to achieve it!!!'
